MY HEART
There's a hole in my heart
I don't know why
When or where it started
I cannot pinpoint
Growing through all my years
Wider and deeper it burrows
This empty void deep inside
Fills my being with pain
It tears at my heart
Opening the space
Releasing a sorrow
Consuming my soul
I ache for relief
For if only I knew
What demon had started
This curse
Was it once just a scratch?
Festering, spreading
A hurtful remark
An unkind injury?
Did it start in my youth?
Loneliness the key
Even with others about
Have I been sad so long?
Maybe that year
On distant war torn shores
When I had to grow old
Too soon
Was it when she left?
Never really gone
I, never the same
Still she wanders my dreams
The losses I have suffered
Some quick and violent
Friends, comrades,
A Father too dear
This beast is fearful
As it continues to deepen
Eating the whole
Leaving me hateful and cold
This creature must have a name
There should be a reason
To live a life this way
Dear God whatever is the cure?