Colin F. Jones

IF I TOOK MY HEART AND KILLED IT

~ 1 ~

Awarded: December 8, 2005If I took my heart and killed it,
I will have killed her heart too,
For the same love dwells within it,
So I would be destroying all that too.

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‘Tis best that I forget it,
For it would not change a thing,
And give myself some credit,
And honour our wedding ring.

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I must accept that I’m an addict
To post traumatic stresses pain,
and try not so hard to forget it,
For to fight it brings no gain

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I must accept that I get angry,
And that it brings me shame,
That it will always be my quandary
For it is now part of my brain.

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I know it will cause her tears,
because I am the man she needs,
but it is the loss of love she fears,
not the insolence that it breeds.

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Time will bring understanding,
If I don’t try to turn away,
From what I cannot flee from,
That will forever stay.

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The shared moments will get better,
And more often we will smile,
And you and I my darling,
Will have walked loves golden mile.