Per Cod

SHADOW WALKER

I walk in shadows
the light outside of me,
the light inside of me,
both I keep from me

I walk in shadows
one light I see;
my boy smiling at me
all else is hidden
in the blurred edges of dusk

I walk in shadows
remembering what used to be
to these times I want to flee
but know it cannot be
what was once,
is no more,
can never again be
but then again
who’s to say it ever really was

I walk in shadows
I talk to shadows
I cry in shadows
my boy, only light I see
is why I don’t
DIE in shadows
though I often dream I will
the tyrant holds me down
tormentor Hope is the death of me
it pains me so
that I can’t let go
I know peace will come to me
when I let my dreams go
accept what I am:
I walk in shadows

I walk in shadows
for I am afraid
I walk in shadows
where cowards like to walk

I walk in shadows
for I dare not think
that I have come to need
the help of others
the way I do

I walk in shadows
because I won’t show
the world
my boy
family
what I have become

I walk in shadows
in pitiful shadows
I hide my shame in shadows
I hide my pain in shadows
I hide my guilt in shadows
I lose my mind in shadows
I walk in shadows
I walk in shadows

… a shadow walker

©Copyright October 2003 by Per Cod

Submitted for the October 2003 IWVPA Club Theme Project, “Shadows”