Danielle N. Calhoun

WHERE ARE YOU…?

I did not know how to say this before

but there has to be some way some how
to make you realize how much you mean

to me and my son
you mean everything

You have been there through thick and thin
you made me smile when I wanted to give in

You know me fully inside and out

You stood beside me when I had my doubts
I leaned on your shoulder as you let me cry

I told you the times I wish I had died

You told me never to talk that way again
but once in a while I get those feelings and then

I think of you who died on the cross
taking our sins and helping those lost
the world is a terrible place and it’s time
I came to you and asked for your time
I need you more than I ever did before

Will you please open the door?

I want to ask you as I tried many times before
will you forgive me for the times when I wrote
the bad things I felt that I eventually erased
once I imagined the look on your face

You never said it would be easy
you only said it would be worth it

Why I never opened up like this
I’ll never know for sure

You took my best friend and almost my Mom
You even took the one whom I loved years before

I admit there were times when I wanted to erase
everything I thought that seemed so out of place
So please, let me plead my case

I come to you now on my knees so sore

wanting an answer from the one whom I long for;
the only person in my life who knows the real me

Where are you Jesus
Have you finally given up on me?