Danielle N. Calhoun

MIND’S EYE

So much like a child but adult in others eyes
My mind is a teenagers and knowledge it does hide

Until it is brought out into the light
I feel like a wimp when I sit down to cry

Wondering why I can’t seem to see
What I am doing whether I will be
The adult that I’m supposed to be

I want to be a good role model
I want to be a good mommy

Instead of a child in my own mind

I’ve been through so much
I feel so alive when we sit and play
But then I come back into reality

I hate when I do things that make me look stupid
But I know that in time it will be unnoticed

I hope to grow up as if I hadn’t already
I wish I could relive my simple childhood days

But they are long gone and sometimes it’s sad
To think of those days when you need me at hand

You look up to me and I look up to God
Wondering if my mind is really that of a child

I feel like a grown up when I do something right
But when it goes wrong I just want to hide

I know God is watching and I know he has a plan
But why do I feel like a silly little kid