LET IT BE ME...
It's easy to say you didn't know.
That signs were never there.
Try to look back and remember
My sad and lonely stare.
My eyes held all the answers;
The windows to my soul.
I tried to accept I was different
But others wouldn't let it go.
I saw everyone laughing
So attempted to go join in
Only to hear their cruel remarks.
There's no way I could win.
Faces I recognized at a distance,
They were imitating me.
Did they think I wouldn't hear,
Or were they certain I would see?
Loneliness consumed me
Like a fire out of control.
I couldn't find any options
And decided to just let go.
So many silent tears I cried
As I tossed and turned at night.
Unable to stop the torment
I painfully gave up the fight.
What! Am I hearing voices?
You mean I'm still alive.
I failed on every attempt
That I took to end my life.
Now where do I start
Putting pieces back together?
They never fit to start with.
Will it be like this forever?
Will they laugh at my imperfections
Because I'm not as I should be?
Will anyone listen when I try to express
These feelings locked up in me.
Will I ever find a way
This anger to suppress?
These feelings I cant understand
Are causing so much stress.
Will I ever learn unconditional love
For myself, just as I am?
If only I could believe in me
I'd have the courage to live again.
Lord, help me be me; to be all that I can
And to take one day at a time.
Casting away these shadows so dark
So my heart and my soul can shine.