CHANGED FOREVER
I'll always remember the November afternoon
in the little office up on the third floor
we were waiting with unsettled feelings
for the Doctor to walk through the door.
I didn't realize at that moment in time
our lives would be changed forever
The Doctor walked in and diagnosed you
there was no way to prepare whatsoever.
As I heard the Doctor say leukemia
my body began to quiver inside
I couldn't hear another word he spoke
no matter how hard I tried.
What in God's name do you do
with your whole world falling apart
when everything around you is changing
clear down to the beat of your heart?
What seemed like forever after we left
we were both unable to speak
when our eyes met at a sudden glance
it started tears running down our cheeks.
I can't begin to express the emotions
or things going through my mind
my first realization was this incurable disease
came to rob us of our precious time.
How do I go on with a normal life
with my mind consumed with gloom
tell me how to stop this stream of tears
and smile when you walk into the room.
I thought about having to grow old alone
what an empty and lonely life
how on earth would I go on without you
all I know is to be your wife.
And there're the children and the Grandchildren
to them you are such a treasure
they couldn't conceive of life any other way
then to have you there with them forever.
I wondered how you would find the strength
to fight a cancer without a cure;
how would you go through the suffering and pain
with your future so damn unsure.