ANGEL LOST
Angel of mine, where have you gone?
I'm stuck in this prison all alone
I no longer can live inside this skin
I take another drink to forget all my sins
Wearing black sitting in a chair
I don't know if the night has turned to day
I asked God to help me so I began to pray
Angel of mine, where have you gone?
My life has slip into an alcoholic prison
I finished off my drink and I asked what the hell went wrong?
The bottle filled all my parties and used to be my friend
But now the bottle took me hostage in the end
Angel of mine, where have you been?
I poured myself another drink just to get right
Angel of mine comes to me tonight
Carry this message to God - a cry for help
The bottle is almost empty I see no way out
Angel of mine, where have you gone?
Don't you see I need you by my side?
Here's another empty bottle that I have to hide
I asked myself what went wrong
I asked myself when was it ever right
It all doesn't matter when everyone has gone!
My friends and family asked me why I couldn't be strong
I live in a prison of tinted brown glass
Knowing this bottle tonight will not last
Surrounded by walls that hide who I am
This place hasn't see the sun
And the drinking is no longer any fun
The shades on every window have been drawn
The phone stopped ringing long ago
The times in my prison moves very slow
I can't stop shaking it's time for another run
Angel of mine, where have you gone?
Living in a bottle well into my cups
The room begins to spin
I take another drink again
And I kissed the carpeted floor
I stare at the almost empty bottle sitting there
I asked God for help saying that Alcoholic Prayer
I asked God if it was just too late
But the bottle screamed louder then anything God had to say
Angel of mine, quiet the sounds in my head
This damn bottle won't stop until I am dead
I got down on my knees one more time and with all my heart
And begged for God's mercy to set me free
From this bottle that had imprisoned me
©Copyright July 20, 2001 by Ruby Alexandra Beloz
July 20th, 1986 was my last drink - by the grace of God.
Angel of mine, you were there all the time!
We discover great courage in overcoming our weaknesses - we are all so frail and yet are all heroes, because although we may not reach the top of the mountain - we sure do make a grand effort - and due to it our characters blossom - our wisdom blooms - and our regard of others grows profoundly. You were well named Ruby - for you are but another gem in our little family's crown.
Peace be With You
Col
That's 5,480 days by my calculations and a day at a time.
That's testimony to not only God's grace, but also to the great strength you received to get the job done!
Way to go IP!!
Randy
God is with you. You did the work and you found Him - He knew where you were all the time, you just had to open your mind's eye to see Him. I am truly proud to know you, to be your friend and to congratulate you.
God bless you my friend, and all my love,
Tony
I was there once - I'd quench my thirst with a glass of Vodka as if it were water. Your strength and will to continue to control this illness has my utter admiration and I would like you to accept "The Spirit Weaver Award" for bravery as a small token of that admiration.
Congratulations Ruby
Ed