I DON'T KNOW

I don't know what to say or do
I don't know where to turn
I thought to put my faith in you
I thought that I could learn
To be the woman in your life
And you would be my guy
But now I see it's not enough
No matter how I try
I thought that if I worked on me
You'd like me better fixed
And though it's true – I'm much improved
The end-results are mixed
I thought that I might make you laugh
I thought I'd be the one
Who'd help you through the sleepless nights
I never thought you'd run
I thought we had a second chance
I thought that this was it
I thought you said you had my back
But now I must admit
That I am feeling all alone
A great big ball of fear
And just like you – my hope is gone
I'd like to disappear
Just like I did when I was young
Take cover from the cold
And wait until the birds fly back
Tonight I just feel old
And at a loss for proper words
I can't articulate
The emptiness that seems to grow
The feeling I'm too late
And even worse, responsible
For what this is about
I'd like to see you one more time
Before you go check out
I don't know what to do or say
To one who wants to die
I feel the world turn upside down
And every truth, a lie

A heartfelt response to A Long Way...
Written on February 21, 2006 by Tim Bone