Robin Amy Bass

EASY (VERSION 2)

She says I make it look easy
My word – if she only knew
All of the days I spent searching
Thinking of things I should do

All of the nights I spent staring
Counting the cracks on the wall
Feeling like I was abandoned
Feeling so hopeless and small

Folks told me – just take it easy
This too shall pass – don’t you know
I tossed my head – acted breezy
It’s no big deal – I would go

Back to the place I was renting
A furnished room in my head
Light up a joint – and inhale it
Trying to block out the dread

Ending up steeped in resentment
And justifying the pain
Light up a joint – and inhale it
But all my efforts in vain

Nothing I tried was successful
Locked in that space in my head
Sometimes it’s hard to be honest
It makes me think of the dead

Back then I thought, “Should I join them?”
I still hear voices – that say
It’s not like you to leave early
Find a solution and stay

Living my life in the present
Facing those things that I fear
Is often harder than easy
But now emphatically clear

It is the way to recover
My self esteem – and my health
Inside – that is real abundance
And the true meaning of wealth