TO ALL!
I take this time to thank you so much Col. I am going through a tough time but that's OK. As you know I have the Lord Jesus and am at the point where I can only trust in him. You have been a wonderful friend and more than that have given me times to reflect on just what it is I DO believe in. My heart is full, I only worry now about the ones I leave behind.
My Lord will and is taking care of me. Your poem is so wonderful and if it is possible I shall take it with me.
I am having some difficulty typing on the lap top but the Doctors are giving me something called "FAUX ENGERY" medicine so they say that I should have a better quality of life until the end, I hope so because I do miss being able to converse with you all.
My life has been wonderful for the most part and I have no regrets for the most part. I do wish I could have met you in person but as I sit on the porch this early a.m. I have let my mind wonder and together we have walked the river together, it was a wonderful trip and I enjoyed it.
I was able to get out of bed this a.m. and get to the front porch to sit in the morning breaking sun, funny about what things now interest me that I used to take as being there.
A little side note to all, Thank you all for your friendship, love and understanding over these past few years, there are just too many to thank each of you separately so I hope you will take this as my heart felt love and respect.
Please don't worry about me; you all have your own lives to live and you should. I don't know right now how long I have, the Doctors say I could go soon or possibly as long as Oct or Nov but they ask me to see if my son's wedding could be moved up from Oct but other than that it will depend on the growth of the Cancer.
There is SOME good news; they failed to see Cancer in my Pancreas or Bile Duct however the Cancer in the Liver is growing and there is the danger. After taking me off the Chemo they say to look on a spike in the growth which would shorten the time left.
Again, if I don't respond please accept my apologies now as I'm not always able to do much of anything.
If I'm still around Tony, I look so forward to seeing you in August of this year if it is going to be possible.
I have made many mistakes in the groups that I wish I could take back but one cannot, my biggest regret was, oh well I guess that doesn't matter now.
Alison, thank you also, please forgive me, you will know.
Col, shall we still have some interesting conversations via e-mail as I enjoy them so much, even if we don't see eye to eye all the time. HEHE...
Jesus is my savior and I pray that you ALL find the same peace that I now have.
I will, as possible, still post from time to time; please don't forget this ole man as I travel down this road that only I can travel.
I'm not saying goodbye for I don't know when it will be so, but I wanted you all to know that you have been such an inspiration to me and you all make me feel so loved that I had to write this down.
When I go I have asked my son to contact the groups via post just so you will know, let's hope that won't be for a while yet.
Please keep me in the loop as like I said you are all important to me.
God Bless you all and may God keep you in the palm of his hand, he has me there already.